Inside Fola’s life.

My drafts are filled with so many pieces, but I am definitely acknowledging all the allegations that I have starved my subscribers, I have abandoned you, and I have let you down.

I have so many reasons; it has been such a chaotic year, and I’ve felt so much that if I had put out something, I’d have bared myself out, and I’m scared of doing so. I know most of the time I write about serious life issues, and I pretend and lie to my viewers that they are totally unrelated to me. Well, today I am not going to pretend and lie; I am going to give you a full recap of how my year went, and as compensation, I will sprinkle a little bit of media. I know, I know, you're welcome🙈.

What am I thinking? I don’t even know if you guys are interested in my personal life so much, but oh well, I'm “delulu”🙈, and I am going to pretend that you care.🫢

The biggest thing that happened to me this year was graduating from University; I am a graduate. It feels very surreal and so underwhelming at the same time. Should I say I expected more? But the feeling of excitement was so brief, and it plunged me into the worst wave of depression I have ever experienced. I have never been a planner; I'm a “cross the bridge when you get there” person. Finishing Uni had me so confused with no sense of direction. I knew what I wanted to do with my life, but I didn't know what steps to take to achieve this; I was presented with so many roads, and I didn't know the right path to walk on, I still don't.

Every day I'm plagued with this wave of sadness, I feel so guilty and so clueless, having massive bouts of anxiety that I don't even know how to deal with. Well, I never thought I would be the one to say it, but yeah, I do miss my uni, my cute little cozy room there where I do the most random things, take a bunch of pictures and videos and live my cozy little life. It's hard to adjust now, but like my friend always says, it's a phase and it will pass🙂. Oh, and I also started this NYSC scheme; it's such a ponzi, I don't recommend.

Last year I said I was going to make a lot of friends; well, it didn't work out so well. I was mean, and I had high walls, and I didn't let anyone in. I am so weary of people; I am easily overwhelmed and triggered, especially by very generic things. I got tired of hearing “what's your favorite color” and “what do you do for fun”. I let very few people in, some of which I regret daily and some that I am eternally grateful for.

My lifestyle was very boring this year, but I definitely had my fun moments. I went on my first trip ever - Ikogosi warm spring in Ekiti. It was such a beautiful place, and I loved the ambiance. The resort was lovely, but the network was shitty, and I sprained my ankle (I am very clumsy). But damn, one of my happiest moments. You know, I'm sitting here thinking hard and hard of any great experience or memory I had this year, and nothing is coming to me. I didn't do anything out of the ordinary and memorable besides the Ikogosi trip. I guess we move next year; I don't think there's anything else in store for me this year.

I went so hard in the gym this year; I gained, lost, gained again, lost again, gained again. I went on this shitty oil-less diet; damn I was depressed. I'm not one to eat so much, but I didn't find joy in food anymore, but it worked. I was losing weight (I thought that's what I wanted), but I thank my personal trainer for knocking sense into me. I still remain a thick lady, and I love it. I was really in my gym era, loved my gym bros, loved the community, the environment, and oh yeah, they organized the Ikogosi trip so I am very grateful for them. I miss that life a lot. Gym day was definitely the good part of my whole year.

It is getting too long, and this is the limit for people with a short attention span; this is not a sub😏, it is a sub actually 🫢. This is totally a big contrast, and it's a special edition “Inside Fola’s Life.” Let me know if you want to know more; there are stories haha.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year in advance.